Cause I believe,

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 09:36:14 GMT

Fuck,what's with the cold shoulder....
Hope its just me being sensitive k.

Okay i should stop being temperamental.
On a lighter note,i had a fufilling dimsum brunch today! (:
Despite being dragged out of bed at 1130am...... Im not being a pig k,just that i slept late. HAHAHA.

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 16:10:00 GMT

Maybe it all started too smoothly and to my favour
That now it feels empty
I can't help being so sensitive know
But its my fault
Should've expected worst.
Miss you (:

SCHOOL IS AT 9AM TMR,ZHANGWEI'S LECT. Seriously FML. Spoils my friday mornings know.

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 16:20:30 GMT

I hope its just some passing mood swings again,
Cos i dont know why like emotions keep stirring in me now.
I dont wanna be so emo but yeah.

You understand me alot,
you really do.
You sensed something was wrong,
but i didnt want to tell you,
cos you've a test to study for.
argh,whatever.

And i guess some problems are never meant for sharing,
at least for my case,
since i have a damn strong pride.

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 17:49:19 GMT

I dont know why but i have this urge to scold you. FUCK YOU!
Really,i think its partly cos of the mense.

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 03:48:52 GMT

Now i know why i was feeling the way i was during the polite season,
Im like having my mense for the second time this month?
No idea why and its annoying me. tsk tsk.
cranky manky nanky sanky.

feel like mj,anyone? (:

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 17:17:56 GMT

Okay,this is a very ugly photo.
But anyway,we did it girls! Well done! (:
I wouldnt say it was a miracle cos we made it happen yes?
Honestly i was shocked too.
And this was the bronze medal that raised many mixed emotions in me
the faith,
the hope,
the confidence.
Never felt this way before and i guess it goes to show how much it means to me.
Really wanted to prove that we could make it,and i guess we did?
The excitement that caused my heart to skip a beat,
The disappointment we all had,
Anyway,im so glad its over.
Love you all,each and everyone of you in team B (:
Or should i say team champs?

School starts at 9am tmr,wanted to skip since it was just a lect but ming nagged at me,and i guess when it comes to school,we dont have a choice. Since when school can choose whether to go or not one? true true? And i just got home,how great. Anyway,i just hope i dont be too zombiefied tmr in school (:

And to you my dearest,just so you know i understand i really do. And even the strongest would break down someday,yes? I guess you kept it in for too long love.

Okay i guess its enough,baibai!

I love my friends,but love you more ^^

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 15:35:34 GMT

It's so ironic cos i'd say "yes,we will win tmr! We can make it,all the way girls"
But deep inside i know the chances are very low very very low
What can i do?
I try not to think towards the negative side
But it just comes?

Okay and it totally sucks cos i only have school from 11-1130am and i have all the way till 4pm tmr ):

And please cheer up,
no idea how much my heart was aching for you just now love.
The least i could do was just to sit next to you.

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 03:43:35 GMT

Okay pris is annoying me now right next to me and wanling is being such a darling by printing my notes for me but i still love you pris,please dont be sad. Thank god i have wl,she's such a nice lady (in miss swan's voice) See this when you get home! (:

Today's a good day! Hope it remains good for the rest of the day and so i had company to school today again (: hehe. Love it.

I have been visiting the lab so often just to print notes and its such a hassle. It makes me busy all the time... WASTE PAPER ALSO KNOW. Okay fine i should stop complaining since wl is printing for me and here i am facebooking and updating my lj. HAHAHA.

I love you all k,pat pris and wl. My reason for school <3

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 14:42:49 GMT

It is really demoralising when you know you can't help but worry,
What's gonna happen?
Will my confidence stay in me?
Will i do well?
But sometimes i guess its really hard when you can't help but lose faith in yourself ):

Took 55 from VJ home just now,surprisingly it only took less than 25mins?
Well and i guess sometimes it is good to have some alone time,
When you are alone on the bus sitting by the window,
Just looking out at the surroundings,
Many thoughts just come gushing into your head.
But then,I dont like being alone. It makes me sad.

Come on team B! We must fight tmr,omg how ironic choi..

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 16:30:08 GMT

Okay overdose of sweetness for the night already... (:

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 10:38:49 GMT

I hate it when i have to face the same problem when i ask you about it,
cos it really saddens me,
i know why you're acting this way but i just get more annoyed each time.
will someone ever know this worry and heartache of mine?

And you need to know that when you're not feeling good,i wouldn't either.

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 08:05:58 GMT

Okay i kinda hope it doesnt end next week although im pretty much tired of it,
Cos i know the end of it might mark the end of something as well
Which i seriously hope would not come true.
But then again it might be good cos out of sight out of mind i guess?
I kind of feel it already,and it sucks. Okay bye im gonna nap nowwzzzzz.

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 07:56:25 GMT

I seriously hate doing tutorials... I dont know why i took marketing again when i freaking hell suffered alot in year 1. Okay i guess its too late for regrets, i should stop complaining and start on my work. There's so much I dont even know where to start! AND ITS ONLY THE FIRST WEEK FYI.

Im so sleepy now,yawns. I guess its just the thought of doing tutorials thats turning me off now. Maybe i should take a nap first,or maybe i should stop being a pig and start. HAHAHA. Good day everyone (:

Sat, 24 Oct 2009 16:57:37 GMT

I'd try my very best just to make you feel better even if it's just by a little bit,
You may not know but just allowing me to ease a little of your agony would already make me feel accomplished and happy.

Okay enough of emo posts,I'm so not an emo person!! And badminton is like the talk of the town for me.

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 16:35:46 GMT

Oh whatever,i just lost at mj. But company was great today and i caught my sister's keeper,it's not bad a movie cos it'd remind us about the people around us, how they might just leave us one day. As much as people are aware of this,they choose not to do anything about it, which is also why people live with so much regrets. We always say,"life's fragile,treasure the ones around you while you can". But how often do we really bring the saying into action? And this morning,i was woken up by many people. Hate it when im such a light sleeper at times cos i'd wake up upon any msg tone i hear when i forget to turn it to silent! hahaha pris,you are number 1 on the list,you happily msged me at like 855am? To tell me you just woke up,but im glad it was from you cos it kinda made my day? it was pretty funny. Anw babe, hope everything's fine on your side <3

Sometimes you make me feel that you're being just plain selfish on your part.
And i may be the selfish one for thinking of you in that way,
But i guess sometimes its just inevitable?

TRAINING TMR,idk how to face caixian. I mean the guilt the disappointment and all. Srsly and not forgetting its at like 830am? Which means i have to wake up early again. Okay why am i complaining since i already skipped school today.

Okay im hungry now after this post,think its the longest after so long? Totally skipped dinner since i wasnt hungry..... how now brow cow should i eat now?

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 17:05:55 GMT

You are making me worry about you,heartache heartbreak. Hate it when you do this.

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 16:23:39 GMT

how bout today is really a disappointing day? I dont blame anyone,just feel bad for disappointing you ): really,when i realised how much you faith you had in us and we just had to disappoint you time and again.

And yes before everything started,i dont deny that i was shocked and disappointed. Suddenly the feeling i experienced few years back struck me again. Of course I acted like nothing to me with my strong pride when actually it mattered alot,but what can i do? Who am i to even say anything? And what's more it may be more beneficial overall.

Here's my promise to you,we'll fight our best k?

And last but not least sorry.

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 18:17:50 GMT

BOYS ARE STUPID,THROW ROCKS AT THEM!
OMG,you suck you suck you suck you suck!! I'm feeling so freaking annoyed/disturbed and bad now. K fine i know its my fault k,maybe im not sensitive enough but its like also your fault. Like 3/4 mine and 1/4 yours. And you are going to sleep now cos you just had your medication and can sleep well but i still hope you get a nightmare about me scolding you and seeing how miserable i am. I SWEAR I FELT FUCKING BAD. And i so dont feel like seeing you soon. Dont come and virtual hug and sweet talk all. Tonight,you suck ballzzzzz. Okay I'm really pretty pissed now,no idea why. Cos i dint like what you said. It's mainly my fault but im getting pissed at you for telling me that its wrong to do that. How unreasonable choi. I SHOULD TRY TO GET TO SLEEP NOW.

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 16:49:37 GMT

Hate it when im such a jealous girl. Damnzzzzz.
Anyways,i finally saw yl in sch omg im so happy i hugged her like more than 5 times i think.
And today i played badly during my match,i know i won in the end but the feeling is just so... sorry team b. Tmr will be a better game yes?

Btw,i love you more and more each day♥

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 17:11:42 GMT

I am looking for you tonight.

POLITE!

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 16:57:40 GMT

Okay i think im too tired,i suddenly thought of what ar told me last time.
When you're sad its okay to cry right ar?

Polite's tmr... just tmr. Like fast? Okay i hope i can play like how i played today during trng,and hope everything will be fine (:

And ck showed me this, and i thought it was nice too. "I know you think of me as just a friend, and that crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you’d ever consider. But I have to say it… I can’t stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can’t look into your eyes without feeling that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can’t talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are."

“— Chasing Amy

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 04:24:48 GMT

Because CK is being such a pig and i bet she is still sleeping... and im still waiting for her reply. Annoying fei fei,look who's being a bitch now.

Anw,happy 18th cherie. Yesterday was a great dinner with great company yes? Haven't met all of you since like 4 years backkkkk. Hope you enjoyed the dinner/surprise cherie <3

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 17:28:24 GMT

I hope it's not what i think it is.
I WISH.
I HOPE?

And so it was our prettiest cauliflower janice's 21st today,doubt she'll read this but didn't manage to write in the card just now but, age 21 is a milestone in life to be proud of,as are your abilities and achievements. Your future looks bright. It comes one day at a time,so light up your tomorrows with what you learn each and everyday. Happy 21st birthday! (: <3

Although you stay at jurong and we have to travel so far just to get to you for your birthday,we still love you,HAHAHA. And instead of taking alot of photos with the birthday girlll,ar and i started camwhoring on our own and took what,50 photos? we could have taken more but my batt was running lowwwww. tsk. Its okay,next time!

AND AND Where are you celeste?!?!?!

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 16:17:44 GMT

I realised i could go on and on about you (:

OMG,IM SO BORED? HELP.

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 13:23:02 GMT

Only when you've encountered death then you'll learn to treasure the ones arnd you,yes?

Okay im just being a little bored now after the rest left my house awhile ago,won like $8.50 at mj today. Hehe :)

That's basically how i spent my day today other than feeling so accomplished after vacuuming and mopping the whole house... Oh and have i mentioned that, celeste kwan is very annoying? hahaha but still,love lah cos she entertains me when im bored. EH DID YOU SEE THIS NOT FEI FEI.